Dear God

If you’re there

I’ve doubted you

I’ve cursed you

I’ve hated you

I’ve discarded

A belief in you

For a belief in myself.

I’ve laughed at others

Who put their Faith in you.

I’ve said they lacked courage

And self-confidence.

I’ve mocked their belief

In a being that can neither

Be seen nor felt.

But now

I’ve run out of courage

I’ve lost all self-confidence

And I can no longer believe

In myself

For I have lied too many times.

So I come to you

A sinner, a pagan, a hater

And I beg of you

If there is any hope

Of salvation

Please save me now.